Thursday, December 24, 2009

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

december 24, 2009

just a quickie note to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a safe and prosperous new year. i wanted to share whats happening in my very near future. starting with today.

aarons clan and i, and suzi's aunt geri and uncle clarence are going to suzi's for Christmas, today after i get off work. eatin the trinity ham, and tons of junkfood. (i imagine/i hope) celebrating Jesus birth, a wonderful/healthy family, another young one (1 1/2yrs) being aware of Christmas for the first time, and the long awaited celebration of the fact that aaron and annes house is TOTALLY theirs now. closing was wednesday. what a BLESSED time.

im going to be taking the week of jan 11-16th off work to stay out at aaron and annes new house, to help anne with jared and whatever, while she recuperates from the C-section. the new baby boy arrives on january 4th. im so excited. ill be their first overnight houseguest. luckey me! :)

i just have to toss this into the mix here. i had a brilliant idea. id like to start a new political party and call it "normies". for normal folks that have real jobs, w/o million dollar bonus' every year, and who actually pay their taxes and their bills. only these kind of people can run for office. oh yeh, they must be legal US citizens. DUH!!! .............

”NORMIES”
for change we can all understand and believe in!

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of you lovely people that choose to be a part of my life. im so incredibly blessed by each one of you. :)

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

ewww....the smokers is comin!

december 8,09

Yes im still a smoker. I signed up for that health coach thing for stopping smoking for insurance purposes, and I have my starter pack of chantix at home, which i began taking 4 days ago.

yes, i went back to smoking. ive been reasonably content in this habit since i picked it back up 3 months after my surgery.

then, the hospital where i work came out with our new insurance for next yr. guess what? its waaaay cheaper if youre a non smoker. go figure. so anyway, if you sign up for this 'health coach' thing and promise to TRY to quit, youll still get the lower rate. hey, might as well give it a shot, huh?

i began my chantix starter pack on saturday and im doing ok. i dont see a big difference. you continue to smoke while on this drug and its supposed to make the cigs taste so bad that you just give it up. many people i work with used it and they all swear by it. the starter pack is $50, which is for a month, then $50 again for the next packet and every packet there-after. the price is actually $130 per packet, but ins is paying the difference. well, duh!!! if they are forcing people to do this, they should be responsible for part of the cost.

Ill tell you what…………when that woman (health coach) called me the first time, I was less than cordial. I used good manners, but she knew that I was involved in this program for one reason and one reason only……being forced, under heavy financial health care duress, to do this. She asked why I didn’t want to quit. I told her that I didn’t want to be known as a quitter. (cute huh?) I actually did remind her that im a grown-up. I told her about my choosing to quit before, and choosing later on to start smoking again. She pointed out all the same crap that people always lay on you. (especially those “reformed” smokers…..they are the worst. But you smokers already know that doncha?) when she called the second time she was telling me all the things I could do when my triggers hit. (like driving and watching TV) Exercise, eat right, (she even described the damned food pyramid to me) get a hobby and on and on and on. She talked to me like I was a child and I told her that I was offended by her manner, and that it seemed, to me, that she was talking down to me..... as if my brain was nothing but a big grey mass, void of any intelligence whatsoever.

during the time that i had quit for my breast reduction surgery (did that cold turkey) a lot of positive things happened. Im all about convenience in my life. Yes my smokers cough cleared a lot, my trash cans didn’t have a bunch of ashes and butts in there stinking, I didn’t have to dump or wash ashtrays, it was cheaper, and so on and so on. BUT I AM A GROWN-UP!!!!! Im almost 62 yrs old and everyone, including where I work is telling me I cant smoke. That, right there, makes me wanna go to the parking lot and suck one down.

i believe that im losing my rights everyday, and around every corner, and this is one battle im willing to stand my ground on. yes, even willing to pay extra for the insurance. Yes im gonna quit. im hoping it sticks this time. but if it doesnt ill be paying more for insurance next year. they made it clear that there will be no nicotine drug screens THIS year, and that we're all on an honor system. so that leads all of us to believe that next year if you claim to be a non-smoker, youll have to pee for them to prove it.

ill keep you informed on how im doing. i may become a non-smoker, but i will NEVER be one of those horrible horrible reformed smokers. lets just say im more willing to quit now, than i was when i was told about the ins and this health coach thing, but i still resent being forced to do something like this. i just dont think its anyones business but my own. now theyre telling me what i can and cant do in my own home when im not at work. my boss says im a rebel. maybe, but its the rebels that keep others on their toes. :)

ALWAYS BE CONTENT!
NEVER BE SATISFIED!

spend time with someone who makes you laugh today.
karyn :)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

email to a friend

november 19, 2009: the other day i was chatting with a good friend of mine and she suggested that my reply to her should be put on my blog. so here it is..........

"we are 2 deleriously delightful women. the thing is..............when one is as "D-D" as we, its hard to find a man who can possibly measure up to our expectations. or to our level of delightfulness."

"of course, we also dont have to deal with a "couch potato" 24/7, nor ask permission to come or go, or spend money, etc. we also do laundry for only ourselves, take out only OUR trash, toilet paper lasts longer, we do dishes for one, we pick up after ourselves and noone else, BUT..............................we are stuck w/mowing our own yards or paying to get it done, and paying to get our car fixed, & just a few other inconveniences. yepper.........we can either pay to get er done or learn to take care of business ourselves. lol!"

"i can live w/all of this. single is the way to go. my house, my rules, my chair, my blanket, my icecream, my TV, and most importantly.....MY REMOTE CONTROL!!! mine, mine, mine. its really not selfish. its just plain simpler."

Monday, November 16, 2009

who r u? :) or :(

11/16/09
hi everyone! whew! life is just one big roller coaster, isnt it? sometimes the same coasters are bigger and scarrier than usual, sometimes we are pushed into the line where we are forced into getting on a brand new roller coaster and we know its going to be scarrier than we think we can handle. and yet we battle for first in line.

we run around and fight for first in line and then complain about how bad it was or is. maybe we should just slow down a bit and assess the situation before jumping in way over our heads. our emotions rule the roost. this should not be.

events happen: we have no control over events happening (they just are)
thoughts come: we have no control over thoughts that enter our heads (we do,
however, have total control over how long we dwell on that thought)
emotions happen: we have no control over emotions that come about as a result of
that thought (we do, however,have total control over how long we
wallow in that emotion)
action/reactions: we have TOTAL control over how we act or react. we must
practice and learn to choose to ACT......no react.

sometimes, life can just suck. sometimes we miss the peace, joy, and beauty in our days because we're so busy stressing over stuff that hasnt even happened yet. (and may not) stress clouds the thinking, disrupts healthy sleep (which will also cloud the thinking), and we invest so much mental, physical and even spiritual energy in feeding the stress (dwelling on it and retelling it over and over)that we drain our healthy resources.

the last few weeks have been very draining for me and the rest of the staff here at trinity. its been unlike any time ive experienced in my almost 20 yrs in this dept. i allowed myself to slip into major negative thinking and talking. yes, and whining. over and over again, to anyone who would listen. many who agreed. the fact is that it took almost 3 weeks of sinking into this self made pit of stress and the big black whole, which was getting bigger by the telling and retelling. i finally realized it and enlisted a couple of my closest friends and my adult kids, to lovingly point out to me when i was getting chronically negative. hey, we all have our moments or days when we need to vent, but when most of what is coming out of our mouths is negative, then we need to stop and look at "us".

gratefully, i worked very hard for a long time to aquire the pollyanna type of personality that i have. or at least had until the last few weeks. i just simply "got lost" in the "down the drain" menatality that i was wallowing in multi times a day. finally when the stress began to show up in my sleep and my neck and shoulders were contstanly paining me, something snapped in me and i woke up to my part in keeping this negative attitude alive and well in karyn's world. this is the longest its ever lasted and the longest it has taken me to realize i was sinking, in many years.

its truely scary how quickly stress, anger, resentments, and depression can grab ahold and set up housekeeping in your mind and body. the only prescription needed is an attitude of gratitude. begin focusing and verbalizing things youre grateful for. remember the ole saying: SHIT HAPPENS? well, it does and it happens to everyone, everywhere...........all the time. its not what happens to you........its how you handle what happens to you.

i think mark twain said it best: "i have been thru some terrible things in my life...some of which actually happened!"

refuse to borrow troubles from tomorrow............todays sorrows are sufficient for today. today is all we have. this moment is all we have.................

what are you going to do with this moment. it is yours to do with as YOU choose!!!

be well, and look on the sunny side of life. :)

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

karyn drama

9/29/09

yesterday some lady called security on me here at work. they called, over the loud speaker (2 times), my car make, color, and plate #. i have never known my plate #, but this yr i remember it cause its 1492............when columbus sailed the ocean blue. i was conducting group w/patients. i told the pts that i had been busted for something and had to end group early and go meet secutity at my car. one security guard was standing by the hospital operator's door w/his walkie talkie. on the way down the hall, i smiled and nodded that it was my car. he got on his walkie talkie and told the security guard in the parking lot w/the woman, "we got her, i repeat, we got her") i asked if someone had hit my car and he said that it was kind of confusing. we walked out to my car together. there stood a lady w/her arms crossed, looking ticked. she said that i had "rammed" into her van. i asked her what time she had arrived at the hospital, and she said "about one oclock". i told her that i had gotten here at 9AM. she said something, and i told her that my timeclock would prove what time i got here. she then said that she wasnt calling me a liar. i did good and held my tongue. of course she was calling me a liar. security told her that this happened on private property and damage was less than $50 and they couldnt even call the police. first...............her front bumper had dents and rust all over it. she told us that she was certain that she had walked between the 2 vehicles to go into the hospital, and THEN said that maybe MY car had ROLLED into hers. i got in my car and backed up to see the damage. NONE to either vehicle. my car was TOUCHING her, UNUSED (no plate), plastic license plate holder. this lady, apparently had wanted me to offer cash to her for "damages". i reminded her that my car was here first. securtiy asked her if she wanted my ins info...she said no, reluctantly....they asked if i wanted her ins and i asked if she HAD ins...she spewed a curt, "yes". the security guards said a few more things to her and that was it, folks. another day of drama in the life of karyn! :)

the nerve of some people trying to get over on others!!!
IBKARYN4U:)

9/30/09
my sister just wrote back and commented on this too. she said that it might be a new scam for getting cash on the spot. possibly hoping i had no insurance, and her knowing that it was private property and the police wouldnt be called for such a small amount. under $50.

i had never even thought along those lines, but it would be a quick $50 if you were able to sucker some poor schmoe w/no ins, whose afraid of being turned in to the cops for no ins.

but can u believe it.................i just kept repeating that my car was there since 9am, therefore it was there before hers. thats just about every word i said, until i snottily asked if SHE had ins, AFTER she had asked me first if i had ins. whoa!!! thats the key. as i write this, i see she was fishing as to whether or not i had ins so i would be scared and offer cash on the spot. i had even forgotten that she did ask me if i had ins, right before the security guard asked each of us if we wanted to exchange ins info. whoa! good attempt at a scam.

SO................beware of people trying just about anything they can come up w/to scam money out of you.

*just another little FYI: just a couple of months ago i was the victim of identity theft. i had left work and w/drew some cash from the bank machine here at work and left to do some shopping. i went to one store and attempted to pay with my debit card. they told me that it wouldnt go thru. they tried several times. i told them that id just used it at work, less than 15 minutes ago. they tried once more w/no luck. so i wrote a check and left. i just assumed it was that stores card reader. i then went to walgreens and pulled out my debit card to pay for my purchases there. it was denied again. i told them what had just happened and they tried several times. again......no luck. again, i wrote a check and left.

my bank had caught someone using my credit card # right after i withdrew my cash at the hospital bank machine. they noticed transactions unlike any i had ever made, to someone using it to buy things outside the united states. my bank caught it after this person had made an almost $400 purchase and immediately the bank put a block on my card. of course, this happened on a friday night so i couldnt find out a thing until monday morning. another smart ploy of this type of theives. do it on the friday before a weekend.
on monday morning i called my bank to see why i couldnt use my debit card right after i had used it to w/draw money from my own account. they explained it all to me and said that the person had made 4 smaller transactions before trying to make the $400 one, and those smaller ones had slipped thru and were paid out of my account. i had to go to my bank and sign some paper stating all that had transpired and they replaced the 4 smaller debits because those, too, were made from places outside of this country. after a couple of months, it all got straightened out, but AGAIN.............thieves are very clever these days, and very bold. keep your eyes open and be very aware of whats going on around you.

just remember............when you are right, you dont have to argue or yell. MOST times, the truth will win out. when you are wrong, promptly admit it and make restitution if necessary.

i was blessed/luckey both of these times. i attribute this to the direcet result of daily prayer for wisdom and discernement. im not saying that "im all that". what i am saying is that Our Heavenly Father watches out for those who look to Him to "cover our asses" when we screw up or when others try to take advantage of His kids. just more proof that He's always watching and ready to step in on our behalf at the drop of a hat. Hes such a good and wise Father!

and the people said, "AMEN"!!!!!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

monday complaints, no more

september 1, 2009, tues.

aaron and anne had to go to indy for a 2nd altrasound yesterday. it was good AND....its a boy!!! while they were there, aarons phone began to ring. after the test was over aaron called the number (he didnt recognize it)and it was their realestate agent............................their bid was accepted on the house. anne says that she promises NEVER to hate mondays again. now comes all the paperwork. to do w/the house.............not the baby boy. the paperwork on the kid will begin the day of his birth and continue for the next 18 yrs. lol!

just wanted to share this exciting and blessed news w/you all.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

family udates and a coincidence

august 19, 2009
well, hello all my dear buds. my life is a gentle roller coaster. exciting, and filled w/joy and a my share of normal ups and downs. i love my life.

my son, aaron, and anne are expecting again. i pray daily for a girl. they havent had the ultrasound yet so we dont know whats growing in the breadbox. i figure if i pray diligently enough for it to be a girl, then He'll get sick of hearing it and change it to a girl. hey, theres no human proof yet. naw, just kidding. ill adore the little one no matter what he or she is. BUT i sure would love to have someone to dress up in ribbons, lace and ruffles, and aaron wont let me put these on jared. they are also house hunting, and theyve found one that "grabs" them. theyre going back for their second look at it tomorrow and ive been invited to ride along. it sounds amazing. theyre both very excited about this one. all is well w/them, and annes pregnancy is, as she describes it..." a breeze, complared to the last one". she was so miserable from beginning to end during the pregnancy for jared. lil jared turned one yr old july 1 and took off walking about a month later. hes pretty much unstoppable now. the chairs in the doorway dont stop him anymore.

my daughter, suzi, and rusty and joshua are well also. suzi is still doing life ins underwriting from home and making more than i do. shes the president of the parent teachers organization at joshua's christian school, is addicted to scrapbooking, and has a zillion other 'irons in the fire' at all times. gosh, it wears me out just tellin you all she does. rusty is blessed to still be working at chrysler as an electritian. joshua is a karate kid in his own right, and at this time he holds 3 third place in one style, a 4th in another and a 5th in yet another, and that is in the NATIONAL stats for his age group. i love watching him (and taking gobs of pics) while hes competing in tournaments. hes been in karate since he was 4 yrs old and has his first level purple belt(1 more purple level). just brown (several levels) and black left to go. he loves school and excells at it too.

before i close this entry, i must tell you about something that happened just last night. aaron and his lil clan were coming over to my house after work(for a haircut), so i decided to stop by and pick up a pizza from pizza king. (best on the planet btw) a lady was there w/her 2 kids and was trying to pick up her pizza. they couldnt find it and it shouldve been done. the lady called someone, on her cell, to find out what was up, then she said, "oh no, youre kidding", and hung up. meanwhile, i told the worker my name and she took care of me and i headed to my car. the lady and her kids came out and i smiled and said, "you went to the wrong place, right?" she smiled and said "yes". then she came toward me and her face rang a bell w/me. she asked if i was karyn and i said "yes". then she called her kids over and introduced me as a "very important person" in her life. she told me her name and we both hugged and cried....right there by the street in the parking lot. she had been a teenage patient where i work over a decade ago and she and i had connected emotionally right away. then something really intense happened and the bond was made even stronger. anyway, she said that she had just been talking about me, a month ago, to a nurse that used to work where i work. this young woman is now a beautition (so am i). we continued to weep and wipe joyfilled tears and i told her that she wouldnt believe this either, but i was just sharing about her to someone just 2 weeks ago. coincidence? i dont believe it for one minute. this was out and out destiny and God-ordained to come together in this particular moment in time. needless to say, im going to go to her to get my haircut soon. (which i was needing to do anyway) i believe this meeting is exactly why i kept putting off going where ive always gone for h/c's. she gave me her card and we vowed to get together.

i shared this last little story w/you all to say this...........there is no such thing as coincidences. she and i both sharing with someone else about our "connection" those 10+ yrs ago just w/in the last month? nope............this is a relationship that Our Heavenly Father wanted renewed. these kinds of things are the things that a walk w/Christ is made of. it still makes me tear up just sharing this, because my Heavenly Father went to extravagant lengths to accomplish His will. and last night, this lovely young woman and i were the blessed recipients of His loving plan in its complition.

gonna close for now, and leave you with this............coincidences are God's extravagant plan for us. dont dismiss them or minimize them. they can make us weep w/joy, and im certain that He sitting back and saying........."ahhhhh, well done!"

Thursday, July 2, 2009

long time lost!

july 2, 09
well, folks, i must admit again...........ive been cheating on you. i dont go very often, but facebook seems to be very addicting to almost everyone i know. i have had several ole buds from long ago, find me on FB and thats just great. then they start "poking" me, sending me flowers, sending me candy and so on and so on. this stuff is way more than i want to deal w/or learn about. i just write on my wall and write on my friends walls. thats it.

well, joshua, my little red-headed grandson has been 8 yrs old since may 1. he is such a sweet young man. he is involved in lots of stuff, but karate is still his biggest commitment. he does well in every tournament that hes in, and is such a kewl lil dude. he's at that age where he asks those questions that make ya go hummmmmmm! he has such an unbelievable "yearnin fer learnin".

jared, my little toe-headed (blonde) grandson has been 1 yr old since july 1 (yesterday). big party this past sunday, and the ole "plant your face in the chocolate cake" was photographed a zillion times. he likes to jabber a lot and is such a happy and smart baby boy. hes so close to walking, yet just wont let go and go.

nothing exceptionally good nor bad going on in my life. lots of good stuff but nothing that would "WOW" the general public.

just an update on my breast reduction: its one of the best things i ever did for myself. wish id done it 30 yrs ago.

im going to a "tea party" tonight on the courthouse square. our government is way too big, with way too much power, and way too much secrecy from "we the sheeple". i believe in what the tea parties stand for, but im not nieve enough to think for one second that we're going to make any kind of impact or difference. our government is out of control and its gonna get worse. mark my words. socialism is on its way and it seems unstopable. as my daughter-in-law said once: "i love my country, but my government scares the hell outta me!"
chrysler/gm...............dont get me started. the unions and the government......partners. please! between the 2, which do YOU think will come out on top? DUH!!! and you line workers at chrysler/gm...........do you really believe the union has your back? if you do, you are incredibly nieve.

well, folks, im gettin down from my soap box and will bid you a fond farewell for now. gosh, it felt comfortable to be writing here.

"if you dont believe in something.............youll fall for anything!"
history is destined to repeat itself.

Monday, March 2, 2009

3/2/09 i musta got lost

oh my gosh........its been forever. i havent written in here since jared was born. hes 8 mo old now. i have 'cheated'. my daughter turned me on to FB. i hate facebook. way too busy in there. people on there 'poke' ya, send ya flowers that i dont have any idea what to do with or how to get rid of. i just went there to reconnect w/ole buds from yesteryear. a few have found me. what a blessing. actually, i dont really know how to find them. if i want to keep blabbing w/them i send them my email addy so we can really chat.

on FB i can read their friend's friend's friend's friend's, talking to each other. its like......who's my 21rst cousin 4times removed? i dont know and i dont care. if i dont know you and never did, why would i want to read your chats w/other people i dont know? simply....well, not simply at all. i like this site. i can come here and chat, or share, and its simple and easy. i just let-er-go. verbally, i mean! i really must get out of here for now, but i promise ill be back soon and update you on my sweet life.

the ole saying..."keep it simple stupid"...im by far NOT stupid, (tho auto mechanics seem to see a scarlet "S" on my forehead) but keeping it simple is a timless saying that teaches us that simplicity is way underrated, and underappreciated. it works splendedly for me!!!

karyn, signing off for now. :)